my mom is convinced i'm cursed since i keep getting hurt. today i managed to fall and my left leg went down the gap between the train and the platform. i swear, i'm the only one clumsy enough to do these things. now it looks like a small rat has clawed my leg. i'll be surprised if i survive summer without loosing a limb.

so tonight i got high with conor oberst in a hotel room. !!!!
more to come when i'm not tired and drunk.

i'm not feeling good about myself. 
i have to go home today and go to the gym. no more excuses. i'm not pleased with my body.
i just felt like crying this morning as i took in everything around me and the state that i'm in. 
thank goodness i only work till wednesday and then have thursday thru monday off.
i'm hoping folk fest cheers me up.
i'm also going to be writing in a paper journal a lot more now, as i worry about my privacy settings on here. it's a really pretty one i got from chapters, very girly i guess, with a japanese flower print.

Last night I came home from work really hungry. I was iffy on what I would eat for dinner at first, but decided on rice, with fish. Easy and quick and soon my mouth was watering with anticipation. I stuck some rice in the rice maker, and since my last attempt at making rice in there had yielded hard rice, I figured I just needed to add more water. So I did. While that cooked I opened a can of corn, and some tuna fish, cut up a lemon and some green onions. Put some salad in a bowl. Soon the rice was ready and I topped it with the fish, corn and green onions and lots of lemon juice, just like I like it. And then I sat down to my feast...only to taste yuck with the first bite. I think it was mostly the tuna fish. My rice was sticky which is not bad in of itself, but altogether the dinner was a big fail. I was unable to finish it all. I was greatly saddened. There is nothing worse then being really hungry, anticipating the taste of good food, only to have that dream shattered and thrown back at you. Tonight I hope to remedy this by making stir-fry. I hope i do not fail at this too.

I think after work I will first go to Gravity Pope and finally use up my credit. I want to get a pair of all black Chucks and last time I was there I saw some really cute sandels.

Then I think it's going home, making dinner, and reading and relaxing.

My life is a series of thrills!